Tick Tock (a poem)

have you ever felt

the lump of incompetency

laced in every slice of muscle

joints

thoughts of strings

shouting at you from your brain

but never ever getting out

the emptiness

unbearable

the heaviest thing

so invisible

how you wish you can grab it

feel its existence

only to crush it

so it doesn’t come haunting

at every thing you do

hidden between

Dis

Torted

words and speech

this world of inactivity

so little

but you’re drowning

trying to stay afloat

in nothingness.

beating my chest

scratching surface of myself

again and again and again

but there is nothing.

whatever have I become.

give me back

the tingling sensations

Of excitement

Happiness

Love

Let me feel this life again,

Please.

Tick, tock…

Tick

Tock.