decided to stay home today, and miss a wealth of lessons on a Thursday- the longest day of the week. reason was that i wasn’t prepared for 1/2 of the tutorials and i don’t want to face those disappointed expectations and having to sit through classes not knowing what is going on and just feeling disheartened all over again. and i’m psychologically drained, with so many CA projects coming up, and not exactly sure how to push forward the ongoing project. since when did Wednesdays become this draining.
lost opportunities.. not being able to take on the H3 that i was going for, its really days like this that i feel utterly useless.
am i weak because i think that i would not be able to go through today? this question kept on recurring in my mind. perhaps. but we’ll see, perhaps what i truly need is some time to myself, be at my own pace.